first 3 weeks

yep..im in my 3rd week at work. i wouldn't have noticed it if my officemate didn't remind me. well...time does fly.


for the nth time, i haven't blogged for so long. and again, i've been wanting to write about how my first day went etc.etc. but i'm just too drained to do it when i get home. Now i feel like filling you guys in with some details though.hehe:)

i've been drained since i started working..physically, mentally, emotionally, you name it. I was really excited about it before I entered and eventhough they told me during the interview that the training will be really rigid blahblah, i didn't seem to mind it thinking that college has trained me to handle all kinds of pressure imaginable. Well...let's just say that I thought wrong. The training IS really tight! i don't want to dwell on the entire thing because just thinking about it makes my tummy go upside down. We're on our second module right now and it's about programming! something i am not at all interested in! we had it in high school but i always asked my seatmate to do the programming part for me while i do the objective part of the test for him in return. and now it's haunting me....so now, I attest to the fact that there is KARMA!haha...:) The sad thing about it is I'm training for an accounts/sales position...which means that I am not responsible whatsoever with programming the solutions i'll be offering to clients! but nooo....the company insists on torturing us with with all these codes and syntax. The instructor teaches us super basic stuff in a hurry and then gives us very very complicated homework that we have to finish in a certain number of days. And mind you, even if we were given about 3 days for some of them, they still weren't enough. That's why I don't get to go online that much. I'm too fed up with facing the computer the entire day that i don't even want to touch it when i get home. They say this is a test of character, like how we buckle up to pressure, how we handle things we barely know, how patient we are to learn something as foreign as this, etc etc. They also say that it's important so we won't sound cluecless to our cliets. Whatever, it's too much. Well, I can't wait for this module to finish so we can move on and read normal English again. haha...i swear...computer language is just pure gibberish.

but! God is good....despite all the stress I'm going through right now, He kind of compensated it by giving me wonderful officemates for me to keep my sanity. I swear, I'd go crazy if i'd be in front of the computer all day in a room full of people i don't get along with. kill me instead. but He gave me whacko people as officemates which makes the burden feel so much lighter...Oh well, you cant have it all.:)

also...I'm still adjusting to the environment. A Japanese company really reflects their culture. As compared to companies owned by Western countries, the Japanese ones are way stricter. I think they have some hierarchy issues. haha. Like us trainees can't just loiter around the building and mingle with the regular employees during office hours. it reminds me of amateur geishas.haha.:) Also, we can't use mp3 players in the office (which, of course, i don't follow), because they believe it makes the person less productive. I find it stupid though because it doesn't work for everyone. Also, We can't eat at the ground floor (which, again, we don't follow), which is where our room is located as of now, because we might leave crumbs that would attract insects and make the whole ground floor smell like food. hay...

I might sound really unhappy about my job but in truth, I'm not. It's just this programming thing that drives me nuts. I hope it won't be this shitty during the remaining time of the training. This is a position I really really want. The company itself is not bad at all because quite a number of the regular employees have been with the company for at least a decade. What scares me though is that some people fail this training . So yeah..double pressure. guys...please help me pray that I pass this thing. If not, please help me find a new job if ever i don't make the cut. hahaha!:)

ok...my eyes are feeling really heavy now. have to go to bed and wake up early tom for school. I'm so sleepy. I still want to write some more but i'm really really knocked out. Again, friends, please include me in your prayers.:D

goodnight world!