bumming around...temporarily

this is kind of a light school week for me. the only thing i have to worry about is my advertising orals tomorrow (which i havent studied for yet.hehe). i'm enjoying all the free time i have because i know this won't last. next week, and probably until feb 27, we'll all be loaded once again with papers to finish, long tests to study for, philo and theo orals...etc.etc. thing is, once i get my back off from all the school stuff, i tend to have a hard time getting all pyched up to be back in work mode. tsk tsk....4 weeks to go and we're all free!!!

anyhow...the past few days have been quite interesting. since i've loosened up from school a bit, i decided to make the most out of this span of time and met a lot of new people, relaaaaxed and the best part of all, realized something that i really really really want to do!!! hay Lord...help..:D

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my mood's been fluctuating wildly lately. like one minute i'm extremely perky and hyper and before you know it, i just feel so down and off. it feels weird and yes, it's freaking me out because i know that there's a reason behind this and i just can't put my finger on it. hmmm...which makes it scarier because that just means that i have a lot of issues all kept inside me! my gosh...shall i go for professional help?!?!? well.i've been talking to a lot of people and most somehow feels the same way. labo..what's with people nowadays???

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on a happier note...i am once reunited with moro lorenzo after a year of slouching around! haha..i love it...i missed all the running, the weight lifting, the sweating (ok, that's gross), the smell and feel of moro itself, and everything that comes with it. addict e noh! haha:) i never thought that going to the gym is what will make me wake up for my 7:30 class!hahaha:D

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i feel stupid. i held on believing that something MIGHT happen. maybe it's more of being too overwhelmed that i forgot to consider the real picture, assumed too much, asked the wrong "what if" questions and most of all, allowed my emotions to take over me eventhough i know that everything is soooo illogical. and now, after being hit right smack my face, i am back to reality and ready to let go. sometimes, you just need someone to slap you and wake you up from dreaming....especially if you've been too drowned in them. although it's not as easy as it seems....it's all for the best.

so goodbye to all the daydreaming...
goodbye to all the assumptions...
and always be geared up with a rational thought that would contradict the kilig feeling especially if you know you SHOULDN'T be feeling that way...(haha..highschool!)

if there's one thing i learned about myself because of all these, it's that i don't easily see the goodness of a person's totality, but when i do, i get blinded by it and purposely use it to cover up his negative side. not that i should always spot a person's bad aspects, but i realized that i should always be open to both.

life's lessons are really learned the hard way....:D